I wanted to post some new pictures, get back on track with ALL my blogs. Because lately i've just been so out of touch, with everything. I just post once in awhile on my myspace blog. I'll be adding loads of favorite pictures on to here. Thanks for reading..

-Jessica

http://www.blog.myspace.com/kitcat85

http://jessbeck.blogspot.com

http://s69.photobucket.com/albums/i67/sinister85/?start=all

me in black, straight from the funeral!
me again, after the funeral!
This is shawn (two days ago), working on the funeral... with me.. in my chair, with his arms wraped tight around me... or my penguin (used to call me peguin, remember? and he was m&m)lol.. :) we were working and he just fell asleep. ended up spending the night.. too bad he was in the chair the hole time.. haha im playin!
Penguins on the bus go 'wobble wobble wobble' and the m&m's on the bus go 'crunch crunch crunch" hahaha back in the day, wow... tripy
Sorry all these cam out kinda blurry, i didnt know the pic size was set so small...
-Jess

Choices choices, their every where aren't they? Who knew as we grew older that our choices would be so life altering. Answer the phone to talk to Sky Smith. Where could that possibly lead you? let me give you two ways that could go (We all know there is more than two but so what, we'll be POSITIVE). The phone rings you look down at the caller ID (which we all have now, what happened to being mysterious?) Its ____ (Insert high school crush here, or use generic Sky Smith,(or) Sarah Jones). Do you answer? you panic, If only your friends where here, they'd know just what to do. (scenario 1) you Answer the phone, he (or she) wants to ask you out to lovers pass. Do you accept (yet another choice, but we wont cover the endless possibilities) You end up accepting to go with him (or her). You put on your best pair of jeans that makes your butt look that special way, and your most flattering top, to accent your features. You spend 2 hours getting ready, you are beginning to agree that you look awesome, who could resist this person? He (or she) honks, doesn't ring the door bell no.. that would take to much energy. You run out to the car and get in. You two begin off on your journey. Your expecting a make out session. Or maybe all his (her) friends will be there and you guys will have this awesomely wicked time, chatting and raising hell. He(she) parks the car at lovers pass, after the awkward ride. He(she) stares out his window for a moment then quickly looks at you. He(begins forcefully having his way with you. You don't do anything because, well you wanted this too, but your not sure if you wanted it now, like this, here... maybe, you may not quite have wanted this... But you cant tell him(her). Then you would look like a little scared girl. Besides, after this he(she) will love you right? and you guys will do everything together and it will be awesome, everyone will know you, and they will love you... Before you know it, you've over thought everything and missed the hole experience. But you feel empty, you know you didn't really want this. But if you makes your relationship flourish what's the harm? he(she) drives you home, lets you out. But wait? that's it? I thought we were going to go out and do some stuff? No? you just got used and left. You call all week but no answer, You can try contacting them online but you'll seem so desperate, you end up doing it anyway. still no answer. Even though you may have had an incredible time with them, (be it that night or previous nights) its over, you got burned. Was it a good choice to answer the phone? Here is scenario 2: The phone rings, its _____ (if you don't have a name by now, your not trying!!) do you answer? you hesitate, you wish you knew just what you should do. Suddenly you decide wait, no i think I'll pass, let me seem mysterious and hard to catch. ____ is crushed but your un answered phone. He(she) begins trying to get a date with you all week. By the end of the week, you've blown him(her) off too dang many times to count. Slowly lowering his ego until he completely disappears. Leaving you free, rid of a bad. And available for the next person.
I was going to go a completely different way with choice two, but i ended up relating to the ignored call and felt bad so i made the person sad and then you totally felt bad for them, right? if you didn't, you seriously need to get a heart,you (pause) Grinch! Point being, one choice can make your life, your day, once choice can wreck your day, your life, your flow. Tread careful, this is fair warning. Anyway having said that, i would like to explain something important about my 4 blogs. I have recently got a couple of new old laptops, just to tinker on.. Play games you cant on xp, write things, (mainly blogs and my story). So that i can take them ANYWHERE... anyway I'm having some problems... With laptop one (Toshiba) its great, but i cant get the modem to install correctly. Laptops two and three (same brand model and everything) (Nec Versa) i bought one of them because i wanted to use it for a spare, or parts. Neither came with an ac adaptor. So i bought one, wrong size, I'm waiting for the replacement to arrive. So until one of the problems gets corrected, I'm stuck doing posts on this hunk... Point being that's why I'm so behind. I've been really busy and i would have had time with a laptop, but finding the time to like come up and sit down and think and write its so, hard... with the laptop I could do a little here and a little there. while doing this and that at the same time. anyway your not forgotten. Now about my story. Guess what, I'm so not getting anywhere with it. but my proposal flew, i got accepted! if i can do one thing, get everyone to agree that what i say about my life is true. Which means i have to contact everyone and we have to collaborate and be sure that I'm saying what's real. But I'm going to turn it into something positive. I'm going to a hole nother level. I'm not only going to get them to be sure I'm correct, i want to get their side. I want to have it so that everyone's views in any matter are expressed... Its really hard, I'm totally over extended here. Plus I'm being bugged to go to school. Course no one but me really knows everything I've got my fingers into... Anyway if you got something from me saying I wanted to ask you a question or something to that effect, that's what its regarding. Mainly I'm putting this on here for one person, in hopes they will read this. you know who you are... Its this guy, good guy and everything. Just brings such a pain every time we 're-meet'. Its like hello goodbye, when I had planned on a longer visit... eh its not even worth talking about... So until next time, I'm jess and that's my life, my way! with a smile (hah)

I'm planning to set up all my blogs and web sections together, so their in one continuous loop. Well not the way your probably thinking, i just meant make it easier to switch from one to the other, with out hassle or fear of loosing your spot, ect. I started by replacing links on my old blog which has become like a article so thats exactly what im going to consider it from now on, is an article. Article title "My Sinister world" and instead of writing daily on it, I'll write weekly about entertainment, and world new. and my views on this and that. Anyway so we're all organized Jim gonna state the blog, its purpose, and title, along with the addy for easy access!
"My Sinister World" - Worldly entertainment blog - http://JessBeck.blogspot.com
"Mobil meets blog" - Picture blog for made with friends in mind, and now expanded to Internet people. - http://Beck85.blogspot.com
"My Sinister Ebay Escapades" - Interesting Ebay Tid-Bits and findings - http://Blogs.Ebay.com/PBeck_25/
And then of course the only one left is my personal blog, well not personal as in only for my eyes. Personal in the sense that it will include details about me, and my life... Anyway all this gives me something fun(ishly) productive to do in my spare time. So until next time, that'll do it..... -Jess

check out my myspace page, because this blog hasnt been letting me upload pictures. I think its my retarded pc, but anyway heres the link: http://myspace.com/kitcat85 read the info or click on pics... in there you'll see the outfit i had waiting for saturday.... that never got used.... heh.. refer to offical blog for details.. http://jessbeck.blogspot.com

Isnt my driveway pretty? and long, blah... you cant quiet get the hole effect, but you get the idea.. 

It looks creepy in this picture eh?? 

How pretty our lake looks like that, eh? 

This is what i see, at the school Mon-Fri While i'm not only parking for 15 minutes... if you can see that.. 

"Oh its you! Whats up bizitch?!"  

Dont you hate those people that play their music loud then when they open their doors it gets even louder? yeah, thats me.. and i was saying..."Wow i can drive the buick again! now who are all these people in my drive way?" 

That picture looks weird... why does my face look so red? sarah you camera sucks.. 

Ahh the computer again, do i need to clean before Jon comes here? hahaha YES! 

I took this when i got the car back from the tire place.. "YAY NO MORE PUMPING UP THE TIRE!" 

This is what i see when i'm talking to you people... or when i'm writing things like this.. And yes i actually sit like that, its quiet comfy! you cant see it but the leg that you only see the knee, it rests on the actual computer. (interesting?) 

There's my fat belly and legs, you ask and you recieved, huh Don?? Didnt believe me, now i have proof.. 

This is the new cat i got, she likes to roll around and get REAL dirty.. 

Thanks Sarah for the flattering picture! NOT! i'll get ya back, just wait... 

Doesnt it look like the tree's are on fire? 

I was trying to show my friend my new out-fit and this was what came out of that test.. 

My grandmothers grave, on her one yr. anv., see Edgar there? and my mom's head... 

Wow Drunk view caught on film... 

Does your phone take pictures by its self? Mine does...